My night out

I went to the theatre last night to see Dirty Dancing which was really good. I was watching the dancing and it reminded me that despite my complete lack of coordination I've always loved the idea of being able to dance. I'd love to take dance lessons like salsa or ballroom dancing classes but at my size I just don't have the confidence for it right now. I have a few things on my to do list when at goal (or well on way at least). Don't get me wrong I don't believe that when I reach goal my life will be perfect and losing weight is the magic fix all but my goodness it holds me back. So I left the theatre feeling good but with a twinge of sadness because it had reminded me that I've missed out on so much enjoyment in the last 6 years purely because I didn't have to confidence to be myself and try new things.

I know dwelling on how I got to the size I am is just wasted energy, there's no point feeling sad and I have to remember to channel that energy into losing the weight but it just amazes me at times. How did I end up weighing nearly 22 stone and morbidly obese? And more importantly why wasn't I able to do anything about it until now?! It seems so simple to me now and I just have this feeling that I am going to see it through. I don't want to look back in 10 years and still be morbidly obese wondering why on earth I didn't see it through now.

This journey is so full of ups and downs its crazy! I tend to vent on here otherwise I think I might just drive myself or my family insane with it all. Of course its well worth all the effort!

On a boring note I'm having a good week so far, although yesterday I went 14pts under my daily points by accident. I was really busy getting ready and getting the kids to bed before I went to the theatre I just didn't get a chance to have a proper meal. I ended up having some toast which meant I wasn't hungry just under my points. I figured I'd use some of them there or when I got home but we didn't get snacks there and I didn't get in until 11.30! I'm really not an advocate of going under the daily points as I feel they really are the minimum I should be eating given my size but this was purely an accident so guess I may as well move on. My main worry is my body thinking I'm not getting enough and holding onto energy so I started today with a nice breakfast full of lean protein and a few more points than usual doing it. I think I might use some weekly points and have a higher day today but I'll just see how I feel.

Here's hoping my good week continues x