Lacking enthusiasm today

I think pmt + stress about money + it being a miserable day + a comment from husband about me being 'pissy' = me feeling a little down this morning.

I don't know why one comment can throw me into such a rubbish mood, I guess I felt it was a little unfair as I didn't feel like I'd been off this morning then I end up doubting myself. Maybe I have, maybe I snapped about something, who knows.

I guess on reflection its not an easy time for my husband, he's the sole earner and its down to him to find a new job to support our little family. The pressure must be difficult and I know he gets down if he doesn't feel like he's making progress as he ends up feeling like he's failed us. Plus he's got a meeting with a lawyer today to discuss whether we have a case to claim back the outstanding invoice. It's hardly surprising were both feeling a little down right now when I write it all down and in fact I think we've been rather calm given the uncertainty at the moment.

Luckily I'm still in control around food which I'm quite pleased about because around this time of the month I do struggle with the urge to overeat at times. It proves to me that even when things are stressful I can deal with the problem rather than numbing my feelings with food. I'm also quite proud of how much I've cooked the last week instead of eating out or ordering in.

On another note my In Laws came round yesterday and bought us an Anniversary present which happened to be a MASSIVE box of Thornton's chocolates. We opened them at lunch and I had just one. After they left I'm afraid the rest of them ended up in the bin which I felt a little guilty about but we decided it was for the best given they are about 2 points per chocolate yikes! I just know I'd have picked at them if they were sat around and as they'd been opened its not like I could keep them for a present or something. So the chocolates went bye bye and I felt much better for it. I guess I've got to prepare myself for these kind of presents with Christmas coming up. I just don't want to feel obliged to eat something just because I received it as a present, especially when the giver knows I'm losing weight!

So I started this post this morning and just finished it. In-between I've managed to find my enthusiasm. I've weighed out all the ingredients to make cakes with my 3 year old and done the housework that needed doing. I've had a little time to reflect and feel much better. I think writing it all down really does help me put in perspective. After all Everything passes...