I struggle with this. I always want to be the person people want me to be and I taken any criticism personally. As a result I am so socially awkward and I never feel like I fit in.
My Husband and I had a long chat about this last night because I seem to get told by family that I said or did the wrong thing alot, or it seems that way to me. I spend so long dwelling on the things I've done or said to try and prevent hurting anyone or saying the wrong thing. Somehow I still get criticism despite this crazy level of anxiety over social situations!
I have come to the conclusion that I need to stop trying so hard to be someone I'm not and just be myself. "do what's right in your heart because you'll be criticised regardless". So I need to be true to myself and who I am not what I think will make other people like me.
I know in my heart I do not act out of spite or with a genuine need to hurt people, I do not go out of my way to mean or hurtful. I don't feel like I'm a bad person.
So I am going to cherish the fact that I am honest, struggle to join in with being fake and don't fit in. I think for me fitting in means being someone I'm not!
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