Out of Character

I decided that the only way I could move on from the Christmas indulgence was to get weighed. I would have gone to one of my leaders meetings which she's holding tomorrow morning but I just don't feel like a morning weigh in tomorrow then an evening weigh in on Wednesday would motivate me at all. So I popped down to boots and used their scales to weigh myself. I have absolutely no idea how they compare to the ww scales but according to them I've gained 3.5lbs. I'm really happy with that as I honestly felt like the way I ate I could have gained double or more than that! So I've got 4 more days to make a difference before my actual weigh in. I'm kind of hoping that maybe I could pull a stay the same out the bag but who knows. I'd be happy with a small gain and thrilled with a stay the same or a loss!

As for my blog post last night I did in fact give in to temptation. I think it went along the lines of chocolate, ice cream, more chocolate, more ice cream, a latte and oh just a little more chocolate! I woke up this morning feeling a little annoyed with myself and thinking I'd write yesterday off to start a fresh today. This is my usual tactic when I feel like I've blown it. Well I figured if I want better results I need to start being honest with myself so I tracked my binge. It was a little scary as I used 33pp out of my weekly allowance (shocking behaviour!) but its tracked and its better to be honest with myself. It really does make a nice change not to bury my head in the sand and always look for the fresh start. I ate the points so what odds does it make if I write the bloomin' things down. I think its paid off as I feel very positive today.

I also did something else a little out of character and I cooked! Now I'm not a terrible cook, in fact I'd say I'm ok at cooking and even enjoy it from time to time, so why do I find it so difficult to motivate myself to cook generally?! This is what I was wondering this afternoon when I stood cooking and thoroughly enjoyed it, not so much the clearing up afterwards. I cooked Jambalaya 12pp a portion and Roast butternut squash & red pepper soup which is zero points. Its a good job I enjoyed it as we are so limited on funds for the next month that there will be no takeaways or eating out this month, which I can't help but think is fan-friggin'-tastic given my aims to shift some weight it fits in perfectly. Pity it comes with the annoyance of being skint but never mind, everything passes.

Just got to hope I can keep up this positive outlook and who know's maybe the scales will be feeling kind on Wednesday!