A blip

I've been doing so well for over two weeks now, not even really been struggling or finding it much of a battle. Before Christmas it felt like everyday was a battle of wills me vs food, food won most of the time. I really turned a corner after Christmas and it was going so well.

Then yesterday I felt a bit down, couldn't really put my finger on why I just felt a bit down. I got right through the day until my husband came home with a Chinese after driving the four hours to get home, I don't blame him for bringing the food in but I probably shouldn't have had any. So I pointed it, it cost me half my weeklies but I pointed it and moved on. Or so I thought. Anyway tonight I had another blip and once again I can't really put my finger on why. I paid for it though, half an hour after eating too much I ended up with a very bloated tummy, bringing on an ibs attack and being sick. Not fun. You'd think it would teach me and yet there will come a time in the future where I'll have another binge and annoy my tummy so much I end up in pain. My body simply can't handle rich foods any more and I really need to learn that.

I'm now wondering if all this is hormone related because I honestly cannot for the life of me place where the urge to binge has come from. Well no point dwelling on it, I'm pretty sure I'm not over my weekly points yet but haven't had dinner.

So rather than dwell I've cooked the planned meal in the hope that at the very least I can reduce the damage. I think if I hadn't cooked there was a chance I would have wanted to order food in which could just end in a week off track. I've taken control, I'm going to draw my line start fresh tomorrow and hope four days sticking to just my daily points will be enough to secure a loss. I can't let a little blip end my hopes of losing and throw me off track.

Its not about falling its about learning to get back up and this is me getting back up. I'm pretty sure I'll fall down again but the more I learn to get back up again the easier it will be, in theory!