In need of a fresh start

I lost my motivation for a good two weeks, This resulted in a 1/2lb gain followed by a huge 6lb gain! I honestly don't know how I managed to gain such a large amount in a week, I was mortified while standing on those scales. Thank goodness I have such an understanding leader!

So instead of moping about it I decided that as everything has changed anyway (with my husband working away again) to take this as a sign that I need a fresh start. Starting with being more organised.

Now normally I'm not the sort of person that has the patience to sit and plan all my meals let alone stick to said plan. Well I gave it go and I was pleasantly surprised! I planned meals for during the week, ordered all the food I needed online and actually stuck to the plan. It made it so easy to stick to points last week, I had points left over for treats and I actually enjoyed knowing what I was having at each meal. I also realised that I have changed,  food is becoming so much more about fuel. I find myself thinking 'what will fill me up for the least amount of points?' not 'what do I feel like eating' or 'what will make me feel happy/cheer me up/distract me/feels like treat food'. Its such a nice feeling to know I'm back in control and food is more about fuel than treating myself. Long may it continue, I really hope its a habit that I can keep.

This fresh start also meant I've had to change what meeting I go to from a Wednesday evening to a Saturday morning. Its still one of my leaders meetings which is great as she's so supportive I wouldn't want a new leader. I weighed yesterday morning after 9 days and managed to lose 7.5lbs! I was so pleased and it felt absolutely amazing to be on track and feeling like I'm making progress.

So this is my fresh start and I will get my life together. It was really disheartening feeling like I wasn't getting anywhere, just can't stand feeling like I'm failing. All I know is I refuse to give up especially reminded of this after a day out today at a wedding show with my cousin. A lovely reminder that I will be matron of honour in 19 months time and I really freakin' really really really.... really....REALLY want to be at goal by then!! 103lbs to go and counting...

Here's to a fantastic week and a loss on the scales next week!